framekehidupan.blogspot.com: August 2014

somewhere in April

ibu latest MRI report menunjukkan ketumbuhan tu semakin membesar..dari 1.5 cm dah jadi 3 cm..ohh noo..dalam masa yang sama jugak ibu mengadu memang tak nampak separuh mata belah kiri..i was likee pitamm..no ibu, your eyes have to cure..and kalau biar lagi lama mungkin ibu dah mungkin tak bole mungkin tak bole hmmm..okay..so bila dengar ja soalan doktor, better you do..its good for you to do..things will getting worse..so ayah terus cakap okay..operation set..selasa jumpa doktor, cakap setuju hari ahad tu terus masok wad..nampak tak serius tu macam mana?and hari rabu terus operate..aku tak bole nak balik on the weekend sebab kena clear few things kat office and memandangkan hari selasa tu memang cuti umum. aku amik direct cuti rabu sampai ahad..so memang sempat spend time dengan ibu hari selasa tu..isnin malam aku naik bas balik penang..huishhhh..sedihh okayy..atas bas berambu rambu air mata..ohh nooo

then aku jaga ibu kat hospital and rotating dengan adik and along..but most of the times with me la..memang tak tinggal langsung..selasa malam ibu dah kena puasa..ayah pon stop by every two hours, maklumlah balai dekat ja..kerap sangat la mai nyaa..the day nak operate tu baru ayah bole cuti..around 12 a.m memang dah kena puasa..tak bole makan langsung..every two hour nurse come and doctor come nak check darah nak check blood pressure nak check kencing manis and everything..haishh makin nervous ai tau..then doktor yang nak operate tu mai nak jmp patient before masok dewan bedah..just to explain..and mintak signature..masa tu aku yang macam nak pitam k..macam nak present tesis tapi 23 kali ganda rasa neves itu..ibu kena masuk wad neuro sebab ketumbuhan tu sangan hampir dengan otak and betul betul di bahagian mata..so part of the brain la..scaryy kann..no worries..awal lagi takut tu dh rasa..

pagi nak operate tu awal awal lagi dah bangun..pegi solat subuh, ibu pon sama..then dalam pukul 7.15 tu diorang dah bagi baju untuk patient pakai for surgery..okayy..aku dah berambu rambu lagi..okayy stopp..i cannot hold anymore..you dont know the feeling when hmmm...okayy..stop..bla bla bla

7.45 a.m sharp ibu masuk dewan bedah..i was like non stop tears..for hours..ayah keep holding me, hugging me..calm me..he didnt cry at all..pas tu along semua sampai..nabila and also the boyssss..

then tepat 4.45 petang..baru ibu keluar..lama kann..but alhamdulilah..the operation went well..they pushed ibu into ICU..jantung aku macam nak terkeluar bila tengok segala jenis wayar kat badan ibu..haishhh..then ayah masuk dulu tengok ibu, then me pas tu pusing dah ramai yang sampai..mak cik.pak cik.eby.abg dafri.ehh rmai laa..pas tu malam esok tu pak jang.athna..and also the rest..ayah touched.me also touched..hmm..some of my friends also came..fakri, syakirin..thanks for everything..

my greatest moment is when bila first time aku tengok ibu lepas operate, she smiled at me..and ask for a kiss..i kissed with tears and say alhamdulilah..can you see now ibu?do you see my hand waving at your left side?can you see it?ibu smiled..yes sayang..i was Syukur Ya Allah..Alhamdulilah..

ibu sangat lah kuat semangat..second day operate, dah bangun duduk sendiri..and she fight a lot with the pain..hari jumaat dah bole masuk wad biasa balik..then ahad dah bole balik..doktor pon terkejut semangat nak baik, nak sihat tu sangat tinggi..just doktor pesan kat aku, jaga mak elok-elok..jangan bagi mak jatuh..ingat tu..jangan bagi buat kerja sangat..

so ahad tu ibu dah keluar wad, malam tu jugak aku terpaksa balik melaka..jihad kerja menanti..berat nak balik, but kena balik jugak..ibu cakap tak pa..nanti bila bila boleh balik lagi..:)

insyaAllah..:)

the thing is Alhamdulillah..

enjoy the pics!