: first no longer last, last will be forever

let me take a deep breath
took me so long to build up this entry
but i have to
because i want to
to let it go (insert frozen song here)haha

first no longer last
seems like you know it must be about love
haha

just to share something
i really fall for once
once
once
once
few years ago

but both of us know that it cant hold till the end
because of the vibes
the vibes are not good since starting

but we still friend
still continue to be together
without no one know why
both of us also dont know why
we dont have the answer

everything we do because of the vibes

till the moment you realise that
you have no right for asking me to stay
to be like before
you have no right and you know you should not say it 

so we put the end on everything

you know that im happy
and i know that you happy

give me thousands people but still it will not be the same as the first
because we both know why

the dreams
the memories
it last 
dreams will be dreams
memories will be memories

i'll keep everything away
because i'd started my journey
and you should take yours

and to you my last love
i never imagine that i will have you in my life
haha
seriously i dont know where you come from
but you just stand there right in front of me
and you seduce me well 
haha

i ask Allah to help me
to make my life easier
to make my life be meaningful
i have everything, Alhamdulilah
and since everyone is asking me about jodoh
i quietly pray and do'a to You, Allah
if you have found my imam, show it to me
if you have not found him, then i'll wait
no matter how long it takes, i'll wait

and seems i dont have to wait for a long time
haha
You give me him, my future rescue, my great partner, my soulmate, InsyaAllah
Alhamdulilah

I dont have to wait for a long time to say yes to him, because i know
there is a bell rang in my heart saying that its him
he is the one
my do'a, my prayer and my instinct shows him
i just follow my heart

since the day we met, since you text me
since you asked me out (many times)
until i finally said, 'okay jom keluar tapi minum je'

you sound 'lega' 
haha

before that i ask ayah 
how, what should i do, should i go out with him
ayah said, follow your heart my dear, you know the best since Allah had planned everything well

the next day, you proposed me instantly
it was not like an actual proposed but
when you said, 'jom balik penang, nak jumpa family iili lepas tu jumpa family din pulak'
i was like 'hmmm maksudnya apa?'
haha 
'iili sudi teman din sampai bila-bila?'
'sudi jadi isteri din?'
'sudi kita halalkan semua?'
and you know what?
i burn into tears

huwaaaa
he say it out loud.
he said everything just after one date
after two month having text messages to each other
after two month i avoid him well 
haha
after two month i put soo many excuse
then we went out together
the next day you proposed me

i ask him
are you sure?
we just met
we just met
we just met..keep repeating the same question again and again
and he just comfort me in every way of answering my questions
i fall again
i sigh
is it true?
i ask my heart
is it true?
am i the really one?
did he just choose me?
he choose me to be his partner till jannah
everything is just like in the novel
haha
i love novel
keep imagine fantasy stuff

finally i give up
am i?
YES, i said yes..
haha


i tell ayah that i found my man
he was like 'my little girl grown up so well'

may Allah ease our journey
may everything will be okay
hope the best to come
and may everything be last forever
until the end of time
insyaAllah

i dont love you till the day me met
i just begin to know you since the moment you proposed
i just begin to care and love you since the moment you proposed
i just realised my heart begin to sing since the moment you proposed
the love keep growing till this moment
although it is not so much love 
haha..okay more than enough la kot
but i promised to love you till the end of time

: somewhere in April

 somewhere in April


ibu latest MRI report menunjukkan ketumbuhan tu semakin membesar..dari 1.5 cm dah jadi 3 cm..ohh noo..dalam masa yang sama jugak ibu mengadu memang tak nampak separuh mata belah kiri..i was likee pitamm..no ibu, your eyes have to cure..and kalau biar lagi lama mungkin ibu dah mungkin tak bole mungkin tak bole hmmm..okay..so bila dengar ja soalan doktor, better you do..its good for you to do..things will getting worse..so ayah terus cakap okay..operation set..selasa jumpa doktor, cakap setuju hari ahad  tu terus masok wad..nampak tak serius tu macam mana?and hari rabu terus operate..aku tak bole nak balik on the weekend sebab kena clear few things kat office and memandangkan hari selasa tu memang cuti umum. aku amik direct cuti rabu sampai ahad..so memang sempat spend time dengan ibu hari selasa tu..isnin malam aku naik bas balik penang..huishhhh..sedihh okayy..atas bas berambu rambu air mata..ohh nooo

then aku jaga ibu kat hospital and rotating dengan adik and along..but most of the times with me la..memang tak tinggal langsung..selasa malam ibu dah kena puasa..ayah pon stop by every two hours, maklumlah balai dekat ja..kerap sangat la mai nyaa..the day nak operate tu baru ayah bole cuti..around 12 a.m memang dah kena puasa..tak bole makan langsung..every two hour nurse come and doctor come nak check darah nak check blood pressure nak check kencing manis and everything..haishh makin nervous ai tau..then doktor yang nak operate tu mai nak jmp patient before masok dewan bedah..just to explain..and mintak signature..masa tu aku yang macam nak pitam k..macam nak present tesis tapi 23 kali ganda rasa neves itu..ibu kena masuk wad neuro sebab ketumbuhan tu sangan hampir dengan otak and betul betul di bahagian mata..so part of the brain la..scaryy kann..no worries..awal lagi takut tu dh rasa..

pagi nak operate tu awal awal lagi dah bangun..pegi solat subuh, ibu pon sama..then dalam pukul 7.15 tu diorang dah bagi baju untuk patient pakai for surgery..okayy..aku dah berambu rambu lagi..okayy stopp..i cannot hold anymore..you dont know the feeling when hmmm...okayy..stop..bla bla bla

7.45 a.m sharp ibu masuk dewan bedah..i was like non stop tears..for hours..ayah keep holding me, hugging me..calm me..he didnt cry at all..pas tu along semua sampai..nabila and also the boyssss..

then tepat 4.45 petang..baru ibu keluar..lama kann..but alhamdulilah..the operation went well..they pushed ibu into ICU..jantung aku macam nak terkeluar bila tengok segala jenis wayar kat badan ibu..haishhh..then ayah masuk dulu tengok ibu, then me pas tu pusing dah ramai yang sampai..mak cik.pak cik.eby.abg dafri.ehh rmai laa..pas tu malam esok tu pak jang.athna..and also the rest..ayah touched.me also touched..hmm..some of my friends also came..fakri, syakirin..thanks for everything..

my greatest moment is when bila first time aku tengok ibu lepas operate, she smiled at me..and ask for a kiss..i kissed with tears and say alhamdulilah..can you see now ibu?do you see my hand waving at your left side?can you see it?ibu smiled..yes sayang..i was Syukur Ya Allah..Alhamdulilah..

ibu sangat lah kuat semangat..second day operate, dah bangun duduk sendiri..and she fight a lot with the pain..hari jumaat dah bole masuk wad biasa balik..then ahad dah bole balik..doktor pon terkejut semangat nak baik, nak sihat tu sangat tinggi..just doktor pesan kat aku, jaga mak elok-elok..jangan bagi mak jatuh..ingat tu..jangan bagi buat kerja sangat..

so ahad tu ibu dah keluar wad, malam tu jugak aku terpaksa balik melaka..jihad kerja menanti..berat nak balik, but kena balik jugak..ibu cakap tak pa..nanti bila bila boleh balik lagi..:)

insyaAllah..:)

the thing is Alhamdulillah..

enjoy the pics!

subuh selasa time aku sampai tu, berdengkur lagi budak dua orang ni

cute!

selfie sad moment!

acecehhh

a day before operation!

yang ni tak bole nak ingat..sebelum operation rasanya

night before operation!

selfie and sent it to family group whatssap

tunggu mak tok keluar 

first day at the ICU..

terperosok tepi wad kena halau dengan nurse!

dont ask what i have to do

hmmm..

:)

day first after ICU

she looks better

 no caption!

 dah bole balik!

yeayyyy!

Sunday night.sending me home

seronok pulak budak budak ni bila aku nak balik.haha

this is my story somewhere in April

: its been forever la hoii and baby yedd

assalammualaikum uollss..
haha..

rasa memang macam dah lama sangat tak install atau tulis apa-apa kat sini..yaaa ampunn..tak dak la nak busy sangat tapi bila dah penat dengan kerja dan some other thing, haishhhh..rasa sangat tak bersemangat nak taip lagipun tak idea and celoteh yang nak dicelotehkan..huwahuwahuwa..

but right now, insya'Allah ai dah ada masa and tetiba bersemangat balik nak menaip dan nak bercerita..
first entryyy after a long time should be what story??hahahaha..

sudah nyaa moh la update pasal  baby yed yee..

i've got my new baby booo..colour mewahhh lagii..klasik..ko nampak mana-mana ramai-ramai banyak-banyak orang pakai kereta warna merah??tak semua orang tau bole pakai warna merahh ni..

haha..ai baru beli kereta..baru tak baru sangat la..tp dah tiga kali bayaq tu kira dah tiga bulan la kot kan..hewhewhew

ok..lets talk about the car..(inhaled&exhaled)

aku baru pass lesen last year somewhere in Ogos kot ke Julai?entah la tak ingat..sat ehh, haa okay..confirm Ogos..haha..then my busu bagi la kereta nya kat aku, kancil tapi kena repair jugak la kan..so lepas dapat lesen tu and kebetulan gaji pulak, aku pun repair la kereta tu sebab nak pakai pergi kerja kan..takkan la asyik nak menumpang je dokk..kalo kena time aku kena balik lambat la apa la..how?takkan la my busu pon nak kena balik lambat jugak..no no no..it is not okay..sudah nyaa aku repair gak kereta tu..alhamdulilah rezeki, kereta pun orang bagi..bayar duit repair je..haha..first damage around 4++..mengucap okay aku time tu..tapi its okay..im okay..

then dalam okay2 tu pun, few times jugak la kereta tu still ada masalah, sampai la one morning tu kan, lagi sikit ja nak sampai opis, then suddenly tekan minyak tak lepas-lepas, berhenti tepi and main2 minyak lagi..still nothing to happen..bila start enjin ja mati, start ja mati..i was like ohh damn shit..perlukah kat sini?time ni?uishh..then call busu tak angkat, berkali2 memang tak angkat..call budak ofis, kak su, kereta rosak, tak boleh start kat cidb ni..she say, okay jap..akak datang sana..dalam pada itu, aku call ayah..dengar suara ja dah nangis..huwaaaaa..i cant help it la kann..baby kalo time susah memang la kena nangis..haha..time ni sumpah memang aku nangis teruk..lepas tu kak su pulak sampai dah..then tekan-tekan memang tak leh start pon enjin..minyak tekan pon tak lepas, terus mati balik..lepas tu my engineer datang my technician pon datang..huwaaa...diorang datang tolong bantai gelak dulu..ohh damnnn..

aku memang tengah berlinangan air mata kott..

tengok!

pas tu memang aku pergi kerja menumpang busu la lagi sekali..aku datang awal kot tiap2 hari..budak2 ni pon sampai cakap datang awal balik laa kan, xdak dah la punch card merah-merah..haha..

before this memang ada request kat bos, mintak kereta sebab kan selalu pegi outstation and so on..so, dia beli la sebijik persona..kereta opis..so, memang pakai letak kat opis ja la..sapa ada kerja or whatever nak pakai amik la..nothing matter..

until la one day, my boss tanya awak bole bawak manual x?ehh, bole je..xde hal la..haha..kancil aku pon manual kot..then start from the day kan..hmm, persona awak pakai la, amik bawak balik..buat macam kereta awak sendiri..jaga baik2..nak pakai pergi mana pun pakai la..saya bagi awak pakai kereta ni..hahahahhaha..im just like heee, okay..alhamdulilahh..time tu persona ni baru 2 bulan ke cmna eh?tak ingat dah but still kereta baru..

tapi bila dah lama2 kan aku macam tak sedap pulak pakai kereta opis..haha..bukan tak bersyukur tapi macam tak sedap la kan pakai kereta orang..even orang memang bagi pakai pun..so, hari tu aku p event proton kat MITC, so test drive few car and terus book SAGA SV IN RED COLOUR..

wahwahwah..no down payment but booking fee rm50..jimat duit aku okayhh..kereta tu take few times jugak la nak keluar kann..after quite a month kot, i own the car..alhamdulilah..monthly around 3++..

orang selalu cakap kenapa ambil saga?u deserve better..and u can afford better car..yes, but kita fikir jangka masa panjang..kalo bayar kereta mahal-mahal tapi bole simpan sikit nak buat apa kan..my rezeki untuk dikongsi, bila fikir nak bayar kereta mahal-mahal tiap -tiap bulan mesti fikir duit ni boleh jugak salur kat mana-mana yang perlu, kot sesak tengah bulan ke kan..xpe la..the thing is, kita pakai yang biasa dulu..nanti akan datang ada rezeki lebih mana kita tahu kannnnn..insya'Allah..hope for the best to come..

so here it is..presentingggg

kereta ni dapat kat aku malam, so masa ni macam confuse sangat and serba salah and terpaksa jadi bias malam ni..haha..bye bye persona..ai tinggal u kat office k..terpaksa..

after one week ke macam mana aku pon tak sure or dua minggu kot, dah kena pergi service..1000 km already..haha..kuat jalan sungguh..and ohh yes, i amik manual..heee, gatal tangan amik manual sebabnya aku dah biasa, bukannya tak reti bawak auto tapi manual sedap sikit kot..

jangan tanya kenapa plat j!ceritanya sangat panjanggg

so, thats it..alhamdulilah dah ada aset sendiri..lepas ni apa??hmm..im surveying house right now..haha

alhamdulilah, rezeki..

hope cukup la entry ni untuk kesekian waktunya..

will write some more soon!

: curi curi masa

salam..
hai..
currently kat office, still working..
kena check everything, plus kan dah awal tahun..
hmm, awal tahun da kan..
banyak benda nak cerita ni..
just nk highlight kan all the things happened at 2013..
but still no time!
ni pun curi kejap sebab kita jeles sana sini orang update blog..
pandainyaa diorang curi masa..
kita pon decide la nak curi masa sikit ni..
tapi entry kita ni boring nnt sebab tak de gambar..
jadinya tak payah la tulis panjang-panjang k..
haha..
k,bye!
tapi kita nak cakap satu..
kita kena terjadi kejadian bodoh lagi..haha!
hmm, macam bangang pon ada kita rasa..
tapi salah kita sendiri jugak pon ad..nak buat macam mana..
tapi kita kuat..
kita redha dan dan pasrah..
tapi kita tak nak ingat dah..
kita simpan dalam hati ja..
eh, x..kita simpan jauh dalam sudut hati..
kita pon harap sangat boleh lupa..
tapi kita susah sangat nak lupa..
sebab mana ada orang yang sayang sekejap sekejap..
kita sayang orang forever tau..
hemohemo..

kita cakap nak tulis sikit tapi kita tertulis banyak pulakk..
hemohemo..kita nak stop da ni..

kalau kita tak sempat nak update lagi sampai raya cina ni sorry eh!
nanti kita denda diri sendiri makan nasi briyani 5 pinggan..
and kita nak minta korang doakan baik2 untuk kita..
hemohemo..

love from tasek

kali ni betol punya bye!
bye!

kita terjumpa gambar ni, selit la sikit sebab tak nak nampak dull

hemohemo

: im a degree holder

assalammualaikum

hye!

terkezutt tak tengok gambar kita kecik-kecik??comel kann..haii laa, comel sampai sekarang..muahahahha

motip letak gambar ni?sebab nak teringat zaman muda-muda remaja dahulu..huhu..motip lagi?haha..saja

okayy..dah sebulan kan tak sentuh blog kita sendiri..tapi singgah blog orang lain cepat ja, laju jaa..tambah tambah lagi beautiful nara tuh..perghh, gosip mana ja yang aku tak miss..gosip jiran sebelah yang suka parking sesuka hati depan rumah aku ja yang aku missed!haa kauu, kan dah terkeluar kat sini.(tahan geram jap)

jom kita sembang laju-laju..motip entry ni cerita ni sebenarnyaa.

taraaaaa..

aku dah konvo..alhamdullillah..syukur padaMu Ya Allah..

segala kudrat penat lelah semua dah berbayar..

amin ya rabbal alamin..

haaa..ada perasaan jealous tak?ampunn...

well, semua orang ada peluang untuk macam amik gambar macam ni..

yang penting belajar rajin-rajin ok.

waktu sekolah memang tak pernah bayang langsung akan ada degree dalam tangan but rezeki and perjalanan hidup kita Allah yang tentukan..and alhamdulilah..IM A DEGREE HOLDER!

YEAYYYY!jumping with joy..

aku tak ada diploma..degree ja mampu..muahahhaha..sumpah berlagak!

okay..jom sembang serius..

setelah tiga tahun berbumbungkan bangunan 16 tingkat uitm kampus bandaraya melaka, and finally im graduate..banyak kenangan pahit manis suam masam dan gembira..

ya Allah sungguh aku rindu akan suasana gembira zaman belajar..

last semester belajar tak dapat nak celebrate dengan gembiranya atas sebab-sebab yang tak dapat dielakkan..

but, everything paid off now..

Alhamdullilah..

Allah berikan aku kebahagiaan dengan rezeki yang tak terhingga untuk dikongsi bersama..

to parents, i owe both of you a lot..even tak terbalas dengan segulung ijazah ni..thanks a lot for everything..tahan dengan perangai kita, bagi duit kat kita tak henti2..tahu je angin kita ni macam mana..

to family, sisters, uncles, aunties, cousins and nephew and also niece thanks for all do'a and support..you guys awesome!

to friends, thank you for make me jealous when i see all of you struggling with books and notes! its really heat me up to study..:)

SYUKUR ALHAMDULILAH

life is good

hayqal totally memang dah bosan dengan konvo auntie dia..

haha..

the only words from him, cepat la auntie, panas nii..

kita tak sempat buat apa pon dekat konvo ni, amik scroll, pergi khemah, amik gambar jap dengan kawan-kawan kita lepas tu family kita lepas tu kita balik..almaklum la, crowd ramai sangat kita bawak..heeee

maal hijrah..new chapter begin!

bismillah..assalammualaikum..

hye..

hmmm, dari mana kita nak mula eh?hmmm

haha

i do want to update and keep writing in the blog but its all about time..i dont have time to write..im busy with work..

tender, meeting with client, supplier, deal with project.well, that is my job..site visit, quotation, report from every project and site, its all under me for every month..company image, it is my responsibility..having late night at the office(for tender,obviously)..i work with developing company, we are starting to build our name, to show to people who we are..the work is double and most of the time is triple..when i came home, the only thing i care is my pillow..only god knows how much i need rest so badly..and also, im working on Saturday, every Saturday okkay(half day je la pon).but my half day pon is not till one..i have to stay back at least till two to make sure every single work for the week cleared..hahh..huhh.do not be pressure..haha

i am pressuring myself and expressing myself, to talk about everything thing that i gone through at the moment..saje nak meluahkan perasaan..saje nak memenatkan diri pikir pasal keja lagi time2 cuti aman sentosa macam ni..bole la kan macam ni..aci x?haha

kebetulan hari ni Maal Hijrah..jadi mari kita mulakan semua yang baru..mau dak?alhamdulilah..another year begin..and another new me born..sekarang diri sendiri rasa macam dah matang sikit..kalau dulu lalang..now lalang yang follow kite tau..haha.perasan..

being in the working area teach u so many things..hateness is larger than before..the world is cruel and do not wait for us..we have to catch the world to prove that we should be apart to live in the world..tak caya?cuba try..kena maki, kena marah, kerja tak jalan..past three month ive been crawling to look into the new world..and alhamdulilah, everything hit me well..accept for one thing, i miss the tender(nightmare and disaster gila)..that is when i fall and then i rise up to make sure that the thing will not happen again..so far, alhamdulillah..

be positive and have strong determination is the trick to be success..close your eyes and everything will happened..keep it still..

that is how i believe..when we already set the goal, we will see opportunity at everywhere we go..that is the key and it is what i've been holding from the moment i start to see the real world..

learn not to depends on others..stand on my own feet..dulu aku sangat tak suka kalau kena pegi mana-mana pon sorang..i hate for being left alone..i close with everyone, friend with everyone..make many friends and have lots of friends..and friends remain friends..

korang bayangkan macam mana jauhnya aku berubah sekarang..weekend, i spending my time alone..boring kat rumah pegi merayau kat hutan botanikal sana..pegi joging sana..sampai jumpa mamat tough set deal joging sekali(everytime)..haha..ok, yang ni sensored sket..but friend remain friend(pesan ibu di ingatan):)

i shop all by myself, pegi makan pon sorang-sorang sampai tetiba tiap2 kali pegi terjumpa orang ni orang tu..sudahnya dok buat modal sembang cik kiah kat meja makan..pas tu bye bye, jalan-jalan jumpa lak orang lain..buat borak cik kiah lagi kat depan kedai orang..masa habis macam tu ja..

try to live all by yourself and u will appreciate things more..i am proud with my independentness because it keeps motivated me..except when my car kena masuk bengkel la kann..adoii, memang patah kaki..tak bergerak langsung..duk umah ja..

past teach me a lot..for me past is nightmare..to me, to my family..i dont simply trust others anymore..that is what my boss always teach me..world is bad, so we have to be bad..well, bad in a good way..jangan jadi lembut or else orang akan pijak kita..even kita kecik, tapi kalau  jadi jahat sket, we will win..again(bad in a good way)

why i write and talk about all this?because ive changed..im not the old me anymore..i live for my own happiness..for my family bright future..i cannot change people perception on me but i can change myself from good to better..from worst to best..asalkan semua itu diredha Allah and dibawah restu ibu dan ayah..and also my sweet grandmother..she always tell me to take care of myself..duduk tempat orang, jangan jadi lalang, jangan sesat and jangan ikot orang..kalau kita baik, orang akan datang..jaga diri, jaga perangai..its all matters..

maal hijrah, awal tahun hanya sekali dalam setahun..semua orang ada azam but will it come true..you never know until u set it for yourself..plus i am graduating..hope more to come after this..and to ibu ayah, i know this is the only present that both of you want so far..and how much both of you want to see me climb on the stage, stand on the stage with a scroll..after all happened, we know that there will be no wet tissue and sad episode for us anymore..insyaAllah..

sekarang nak cari duit banyak-banyak..many more to come..banyak lagi impian tak tercapai..be bad and be good at the same time..trust your dreams and chase the times..

family, money, success, dreams, friends and love is all you need..

and solat,do'a, zikir janganlah tinggal..

there will be time when you are down, these three things will keep u awake..practice it and you will see rainbows hiding behind the walls..

salam maal hijrah and make improvement on yourself..

: do i miss my blog?

assalammualaikum uollss!!!
wahahaha..hyeee

do i miss my blog?oh yes i do!really do!

rindu kat theme!rindukan header kat atas ni!yang buat sendiri tuu!(zzzzz) rindukan sinaran pink di blog ini!rindukan segala-gala di page ini!walaupon tak sepopular redmummy and keknis and also kak filla but i really do miss u blog!! *laphingusjap*sehsehseh*

last update 18 july kot kan..adoii..lamanyaa!..sekarang dah oktober and also my birthday pon da lepas..saje tau nk update kat cni..hahaha..nothing special pon this time just alhamdulilah sambut dengan ahli keluarga baru..my babies!my sweet little babies!my sweet little heroes!and also my life!

yang inilah nyawa..i do miss something last year..and still pray for everything to be recovered back but i have happiness in between it, my babies!
*sajetaunkmenyelitkatsini*huhu*sinijetempatmakluahkan*

sekarang, dah masuk alam baru kot la kan..heheh..gedik, padahal orang yang sama ja..i was thinking to change the word to represent myself..from aku to saya maybe, from aku to i maybe, from aku tu kite maybe..auchhh...i was thinking je la kan,.not yet want to change!hmmm...perlu ke tak?memang ada terfikir masa taip ni..tapi tak payah la..pakai yang lama ja la..aku memang suka buang masa pikir benda yang tak releven, benda yang sangat remehh lepas tu buat keputusan tak fikir lepas tu ha mulalah nak menyesal sana sini..my bad!haish.ni dah kenapa nak emo pulak ni..membebel je tau mak jemah ni pasal aku saya i ja ponn..adoii

okay,okay,dah...stopp..tesis dah selamat hantar, result pon alhamdulilah..A bulat ko die bagi..alhamdulilah..first time 4 flat, xpenah penah aku dekan sekali die bagi aku 4 flat tros..amboii ko iili, melompat jauhh..yang result baik-baik semua nak tayang kat sini, tapi yang down buruk buruk kita buat senyap ja okayy..haha

and alhamdulilah jugak bila semua dah settle hantar tu, next monday i got my job interview, dua2 aku pegi tau..dua2 dapat..tapi pilihan dan restu ibu yang penting..throw away kuala lumpur and jom kita amik melaka..walaupon hebat jugak tawaran di sana tapi semua aspek dan risiko haruslah dititikberatkan jua..jadinya, melaka lah tempat berperantauan sekarang..eh,macam sebelum ni duduk singapore..haha

so, isnin interview, selasa dapat call confirm..malam tu teros aku lompat bas balik penang tau..konon konon nak mintak restu ka la kann..tapi tak jugak..sebabnya rabu tu dah mula puasa kan..jadinya mau sambut bersama laa..report duty on monday so sempat la berhari hari di penang..heeeee

lepas seminggu aku kerja, ada pulak something happen..hmmm, tapi tak pe kita stop dulu cite tu..huhu

finally i start to work, dats why la sangat tak sempat nk update tau..habis setel report sume teros i g interview then teros mula kerja..balik rumah dah lewat jugak sebab kan mula kerja during ramadhan so dah sahsah la berbuka kat luar then lewat la sampai rumah..sampai je tros bam bam boom atas tilam..esok bangun pagi dah pegi keja..huhu..weekend la memang busy..invitation sana sini..wah kauu, kalah artis!haha..saje nak menayang laa tuu..:) uishh, tak baik riakk

lepas tu dah raya, kali ni raya kat sini..ibu ayah semua datang melaka..kitorang sambut kat melaka jaa..and also kan adalah satu kisah sedih kat sini..tiga hari before raya aku cirit birit, muntah muntah, demam panas..adoii..badan ni memang lembik sangat2..lepas tu sangat tak boleh nak makan, xleh nak telan makan pon..makan sikit ja muntah,,muntah and muntah..last2 pegi cucuk and alhamdulilah tak de lah sampai nak warded kan..tapi almost one week jugak tak makan..sampai raya pon memang tak makan..tak boleh nak telan pon..aku kan tengok orang makan tu makan ni time raya pon tak de nak terliur..ai is tengok ja..sampai la raya kedua tu kot adoiii, memang tak leh tengok makanan langsung..tengok ja muntah..waktu tu kan memang macam kerempeng..hahaha..perasan..ye la, dah memang tak makan langsung..tapi bila dah sihat tu kan macam sekarang ni, memang aku melantak la tak ingat dunia..jadi lah macam ininya sekarang..hahha..kurus itu hanyalah sementara even though i look nice during that time..but makan still makan..heaven kot..banyak gambar raya dah upload kat ig, memang ak nampak riang ria tapi hakikatnya mood makan memang tak ada langsung..pelik kann..

dah la..just to update what ive been doing all this time..well, lepas ni insyaAllah will keep updating ok..:)

cheer up everyone!life is to enjoy!be beautiful and always think that you are good enough!